The man.

One of my main goals in life is that when God does send that right person into my life. He MUST push me INTO God. I want someone who provokes my Spirit man to go be with Jesus and fall in love with him way more than I ever thought humanly possible. I'm just saying, I've liked guys that have pulled me away from spending time with God, and I feel like.... if that's what's going to happen-- I'd rather not have him at all.

Like, I want to wake up in the middle of night and pray with my husband for the nations. I want him to know that above all things, we serve God only. I want him to realize that without God as the CENTRAL BEING in our relationship, we. are. nothing.

Anyways, I don't know why I'm thinking about this. Probably b/c I just got off the phone with a friend who is dating someone that isn't helping her pursue the Lord.

I haven't been on a date in almost 2 years. And I'm SOOOOO OKAY with that. I don't care what everyone says, I don't care that people try to hook me up with guys who are hott but have no character. I don't want to be a woman who gives all she has to someone who doesn't even know the VOICE OF THE LORD.

That is sooooo vital for me to know that my husband can hear God speaking. ANd I want him to trust that my relationship with God is so passionate that no kiss he gives me could steal me away from my time with the Father.

First of all---- I WAS CREATED TO LOVE CHRIST. I WAS CREATED TO LOVE HIM ALONE. I WAS CREATED TO BE HIS PARTNER, HIS BEST FRIEND, HIS LOVER. I WAS CREATED TO SIT AND TALK WITH HIM FIRST THING IN THE MORNING.

And therefore, that is what I strive to be---- GOD'S. BEST. GAL.

and it doesn't even matter what everybody thinks about me. I love the Lord. and that's it! And I know I'm not perfect, and some guys have gotten the wrong impression of me, but whatever it is that they've seen-- I hope it's been a Godly character and a Godly woman.

I know that I will become like those I hang around. And that's why I talk about my husband... I'm going to hang around him for the ReST OF MY LIFE--- and I want to make sure that as we spend time together, we are provoking eachother to know Christ.... I WANT TO KNOW CHRIST.

CHRIST, HELP ME KNOW YOU. ALONE.


Okay.

It's like this:

If he doesn't love Jesus more than he loves me. than I don't want him at all.