Rainy Season.

Being Married to God doesn't mean we have less fights than a normal married couple. I def want to throw my cell phone at him and tell him he is wrong. I want to shove him and tell him that he doesn't love me enough and that I need more. I think I've even cussed at God before. wait... yep... I did. and You know what? Tonight I was in the gym working out listening to dumb pop songs on my Ipod. And I put on some Christian Rap Music. One of the songs was talking about his time when he hung on the cross. It was so graphically defining what he went through for me. And I felt like that song was pumping my whole body so full of light that I could just burst! I seriously thought, "Oh man, I'm going to burst." Anyway, I realize that whatever I'm going through.... whatever rainy season.... whatever time that I can't handle.... whatever heart break, misunderstanding, wrong conclusions, whatever storms and upsets, CHRIST STILL RADIATES BECAUSE HIS LOVE IS RADICAL. What he did for me on the cross-- if I just think about that--- then I will have no doubt that he loves me.... So I can put my cell phone away, and my angered arms that want to shove him, and my harmful mean words, and instead I can just cry to him about everything that is wrong in life...... and here is the thing....

whether I want to shove him or cry on him..... he's still holding me. Kinda odd isn't it? My anger toward him doesn't weaken his love for me or his desire for me to grow, know, and fuse my life with him.

Anyways..... it doesn't matter what I'm going through. On rainy days his love still shines.

Here is the verse I can't get off my heart--- Ezekiel 1:28 Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.

Yes. if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself (2 Timothy 2:13).

As Fabulous As This

Just some thoughts... I got to writing....

I'm really not concerned I know God is the hero of my day
and as long as I'm surrendered I know God will have his way,
I'm certain that he's holding my future in his hands
I don't have to try and create my own destiny or plans.
And it feel good to know that he's totally in control
and he will return the good things the enemy once stole
and I don't have to worry about tomorrow because it's his!
can you tell me, can you find another lover is as fabulous as this?
what other friend would sit by my side all night?
what other father would always know what's right?
And what other God could love me the way that he does?
And manytimes he blesses me for no real reason, just because.
So, when life gets a mess and I strive to know the path
I just look in his eyes and my heart starts to laugh
laughter of joy because I know that he is so good!
laughter of peace because I know that he has stood
next to me forever-- he's in my future and my past
Could there be a better lover? For what more could I ask?!
He's never given up on me, and he's held me in my pain
and he's always come to save me even when I couldn't speak his name.
He has heard my heart though the loudest storms that rage
and he released me from my prison, yes he broke open the cage.
and so I can not worry . I cannot dread. I cannot fear.
for when I feel frightrened, I remember God is near.
and I don't have to plan out each second of my life
I am content being God's best friend, being God's holy wife.
and even if I cannot see all the wonderful sights I wish.
I still say God's enough for me. Can I find another as fabulous as this?