Rainy Season.

Being Married to God doesn't mean we have less fights than a normal married couple. I def want to throw my cell phone at him and tell him he is wrong. I want to shove him and tell him that he doesn't love me enough and that I need more. I think I've even cussed at God before. wait... yep... I did. and You know what? Tonight I was in the gym working out listening to dumb pop songs on my Ipod. And I put on some Christian Rap Music. One of the songs was talking about his time when he hung on the cross. It was so graphically defining what he went through for me. And I felt like that song was pumping my whole body so full of light that I could just burst! I seriously thought, "Oh man, I'm going to burst." Anyway, I realize that whatever I'm going through.... whatever rainy season.... whatever time that I can't handle.... whatever heart break, misunderstanding, wrong conclusions, whatever storms and upsets, CHRIST STILL RADIATES BECAUSE HIS LOVE IS RADICAL. What he did for me on the cross-- if I just think about that--- then I will have no doubt that he loves me.... So I can put my cell phone away, and my angered arms that want to shove him, and my harmful mean words, and instead I can just cry to him about everything that is wrong in life...... and here is the thing....

whether I want to shove him or cry on him..... he's still holding me. Kinda odd isn't it? My anger toward him doesn't weaken his love for me or his desire for me to grow, know, and fuse my life with him.

Anyways..... it doesn't matter what I'm going through. On rainy days his love still shines.

Here is the verse I can't get off my heart--- Ezekiel 1:28 Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.

Yes. if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself (2 Timothy 2:13).