THE INBETWEEN MOMENTS

Lord? Can I be all yours? you're the only one that fills me till I'm no longer lonely.

Lord? Will you forgive me? for walking away when I know that you're all I want only.

I turned 25 like two weeks ago, and yet feel like I've done nothing.
I've been to 11 countries. I've written three books. Two were published. I've graduated with an English Degree and Minored in theology and greek. I spent a year doing missions. BUT HERE'S THE DEAL:

I'M NOT GETTING A CROWN FOR ANY OF THAT!

I'M GETTING A CROWN FOR WHAT I DID IN THE INBETWEEN MOMENTS.

WAS I LOVE? WAS I LOVE? WAS I KIND? WAS I KIND?
HOW DID I TREAT MY FAMILY WHEN NO ONE WAS LOOKING?
HOW DID I TREAT PEOPLE AT WORK WHEN THEY NEEDED ME?
HOW DID I TREAT THE MAN ON THE STREET WHO NEEDED A DRINK?
HOW DID I TREAT SOMEONE WHO FELT LONELY?
HOW DID I TREAT THE PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T KNOW JESUS?
WHO DID I TELL ABOUT JESUS?!?!?!?!
WAS I LOVE? WAS I LOVE? WAS I KIND? WAS I KIND?

And so it comes to this... Yesterday I told God that the first thing I want to know when I see him is what made him the happinest when I was on earth. WHAT MOMENT, LORD?! WHAT MOMENT MADE YOU SMILE THE MOST?!

But then I realized....... I CAN'T WAIT ...... to know that fact. I need to know it now. and whatever it is............. I'LL DO IT! I'LL DO IT EVERYDAY.

But Check it: When I get to heaven God isn't going to say.... Janell---- you "wrote tons of books, traveled the world, had a good degree..."

He'd say something like, "Janell.... you wrote a book, and you did it faithfully, and your fingers hurt, but you wanted to reach people for me.... But Janell, sometimes you had a bad attitude about it..... Janell...... I love that you wrote for me.... I love more that you wanted to write for me. Janell..... YOu traveled the world, but Janell, I'm more proud of you because you talked about my love everywhere you went! But, Janell.... you counted the big things..... I COUNT THE SMALL...... THE INBETWEEN MOMENTS."

moving back to my main point-- living for God is not about the over all big sucesses we do. you can do missions for two years, and if you do with a bad attitude, what joy will you find in that? what joy will God find in that?

The inbetween moments, are where you make your legacy. that's the place where you make God smile. that's the dessert that you have to maintain your strength.

MAYBE YOU FEEL LIKE I. MAYBE YOU'VE DONE A LOT OF STUFF...... BUT YOU KNOW IT'S NOT ENOUGH..... GOD WANTS YOU TO LIVE INBETWEEN MOMENTS. Pride creeps in when you think you've done something of such greatness that you can have a bad attitude! NOT TRUE. Your entire life is more about your attitude.

Just thoughts.... just thoughts.....