Dim-lit

Tonight I went to the church by myself, and I sat down and slid my fingers over the piano in the big empty dim-lit sanctuary. I wanted to write a new song to the King who I've know since I've been five. But the only line that I could even write is "Who knew a love like this could exist? A love that is jealous, marvelous, and unending, A love that is unyielding."

and the only reason I couldn't finish the song is because somehow I was worried that someone else was in the church and they would hear my anthem to the Lord. There is something about getting ALONE all ALONE with the one your heart loves. For example, I can't even fully pray when other people are in the house. I need everyone gone so I can say what I want.

I think it would be marvelous to have a place far away, far and safe, that I could just go and nobody else but me and God and that would be our spot. I found a place a while back, but I didn't feel safe. I'm really careful about my whereabouts.

I drive at night because I can talk outloud to God and I know it's just me and him.

I don't know what I'm saying except my favorite place in the world is alone with my lover, in a dim-lit place, with a piano or guitar on my fingertips, words on my voice, and a new song that makes God feel loved.

How coool to make Jesus feel loved. After all he did for me?! I feel honored to make him feel loved.