When things get HAZY and CRAZY

I have to believe God holds me when I'm down.
I have to believe he picks me up off the cold, dark ground.
I have to see that he can and will wipe my tears.
I am force to acknowledge that he's been with me for years.

So I'm not giving up hope, even though back things occur
I can stand on his word, and then I am secure!
and his word says that he knows me, his word says he is love
and with those two good things--- he's more than enough!

I have to believe God sees me even when no one can
I have to believe God wants me, and wants to hold my hand.
I have to see that he can fix my struggles, and make my gray skies blue.
I am force to acknowledge that he's my best friend and his grace is always true.

so I'm not giving up trust, even when life hurts so bad
I can stand on his joy, and know that he alone makes me glad.
and his word says he adores me, and his word says he is kind
and that is what I tell myself when my spiritual eyes go blind.

I'm trusting in God's love for me.
I'm trusting in God's love for me.
I'm trusting in God's love for me.


today sucked. it was prettyyyyyyyyyyyyy bad. But, God wins. God always wins and he will get the glory! I love him.

I'm forced to throw up my hands and say "Okay, Lord! Whatever you want-- I'm all yours!" My editor failed me. totally. But, God knows what's right. Today was just really hard dealing with finances and ordinary life mishaps. But I want to say that I LOVE MY BOOK. I love the things God has given me to write. I can't wait for all the missionaries to read it. I can't wait for their hearts, and lives and minds to be filled with JOY and TRUTH and LOVE. Someday, I will have my own office, where I sit and write and pray and cry and just learn of God and teach other's of God. Someday I will have a husband who walks beside me and we will go into all the world proclaiming the name of Jesus! and I will march forth unashamed. I don't care what's happening right now. I determine my eyes to rest on JESUS. HE IS THE AUTHOR OF MY FAITH. And he is my first and only love.